How We Became Growl Louder Adventures: Part 2
Winnie investigating the scene.
This photo caught my eye when I was looking for the Journal Entry picture so here it is! Winnie has an infatuation with wearing clothes and sometimes it's hard to get her to part with them when they need to be washed! It's good to get a little joy in the day to help keep the energy on the right side of things. Anyhow, I hope this journal entry finds you all well and doing well for others.
So in our last journal entry, we were talking about when I lost my son. It was right around the start of the Covid 19 pandemic so it took several months before we were able to finally console our child and at the same time say our last goodbyes. The dreams continued, but that day would become a part of them as well. It was a good several years of solitude for the most part, I kept my head down and worked hard while keeping to myself and internally blaming myself for all the times I didn't do something right, the time I didn't spend with him, and just about anything else under the sun you could think of. I'd become lost in my head.
Along with that, I had become numb to most feelings aside from anger and rage. I'd have to be careful that I wouldn't be overly mean in times of confrontation, because I felt like there would be no remorse or consideration for compassion. Over time though, I learned to harness that anger, and turn it into something more useful. I used it to power thought. I used it to think even harder about just about anything, and the more I thought about it, the more I wanted to break free from the prison I placed myself into, the more I wanted to live again, and live for my son's memory.
Now, from that moment, roots had been planted that were leading up to Growl Louder adventures, except there was a rather large detour with "Kasakari" which happened to be my long time gamer tag. That sounds like the perfect place to start next week when we have our next journal entry! Until our next adventure, be inspired, be inspiring and #GrowlLouder
